An update

Ok, I didn't quite manage to do what I wanted to this year. Namely have an online diary - I was hoping that having it online would make it easier for me to write on the blog - but I actually find it more difficult. Difficult because my highly developed perfectionist Gen are a big obstacle.

Yes, I have that Gen - Not that I ever had my DNA made up but I just know.... Just the other day I was blaming my mother - telling her that she was the one who gave it to me. I was hoping for some support and all she said was to drop it. Quote: "I was old before I realized that the only one who cares about it, is me - nobody else really sees it or maybe even appreciate it". Maybe I should give an example to clarify. I have been knitting a V-neck sweater in the round - so I first divided for the V which went fine and then for the arms. Big problem, I had lost a stitch and I couldn't find out where. By then I had already done an extra 10cm. What to do? Well I think most knitters would just leave it. No one is going to see the difference. But ME! oh NO! I have to undo the entire thing down to the V-neck to be sure that I make it right. Just because I know it is going to annoy me that I know it is not done correctly.

I will post a picture of it when done. But I still have part of the sleeves to do and I don't have much yarn left.


The most exciting thing that has happen lately is in the job area. Friday 8 Feb I applied for a job over the internet. The following week they asked for a phone interview only 4 hours after the phone interview they wrote me an e-mail asking me for an onsite interview.... So I'm going this Friday. So cross your fingers - the job sound really interesting and a good match for me. A great opportunity to really bloom. I'm a bit nervous though cause I will be having some tests I never had to do a test for a job before. I have to admit I always got my jobs in the past due my performance on the interview. (like the one I have now). I have tried to check out the logic games they have on the internet but non of them sounds like the one I'm going to take. Anyway I don't want to get my hopes up that I will get the first job I apply for - but try to enjoy the experience and be my self. I hope I can stick to the latter...

I apologize for any spelling mistakes but the function doesn't work today. However, instead of trying to be perfect I will just post it as it is.

Good intention to hard to change habits....

Back again after a week of silence. I think it was better that way - Friday was a good day though went to Zurich to meet with my coach. Yes she is helping me find a new job. I had to realize that I was not going to be able to find the motivation and the confidence to do it alone. She is great - we a such good match and we connected right away. So my cv is almost done and this week we have to talk about my values in order for me in a potential interview to find out if that company will be a good fit for me. I don't want to go from fire to fire (or what ever the quote is in English). After we had lunch and a good long talk at Starbucks - I went to Das Kunsthause - they had an exhibit with a photographer Edward Steichen taking picture in the 1920-30s for Vogue and Vanity Fair http://www.kunsthaus.ch/cgi-bin/kunsthaus?MT=main (forgot how to do a proper link). It was small but good. Afterward I took the train back to Geneva (almost 3 hours) I was happy that I had decided to take the 1 cl. ticket. Not to many people or noise on the way back. I did bring my knitting but I spend most of my time ready this book that Liz had lent me "the glass Castle" by Jeannette Walls. If you are looking for something - this is the book. Emotionally a hard read - at least for me but otherwise easy and very well written.
Last news of yesterday - my friend Sara because a PhD Dr yesterday. I went to her defense. She was cool - though I did think the jury grilled her quite a bit - or maybe it is just harder to listen in then to be the one answering. I for sure couldn't answer. Physic is not my thing - to abstract for my brain really to grasp it. But I did understand some of it - which I was proud of. Another news is that my friend ML is about to have her baby. The water brook yesterday but as first no contractions. I haven't heard from her since and it is almost 24 hours. I hope it is good news.....Have a nice day....

Full Moon and more....

I have been wondering today why I have been so much on the edge since I woke up Monday morning and now I know. It is the full moon. I haven't thought about it for a while but every time the moon is full things are not what the should be.
I guess I just have to wait for it to pass cause I just don't know what to do about the moon.

Getting on Ravelry and maybe teaching somebody to knit?

So I got on ravelry after 10 days I think - it went so fast I only once mentioned to somebody that I was nervous it was going to take forever since I was no. 5867 or something in line. But it turned out to go pretty fast. I have looked around but not had much time to check out projects. Maybe because I suddenly have a bit to many going on...
Today at work somebody on the classified was looking for somebody to teach the knit - (her daughter) Anyway I could not resist so I answered - so I might get a student. I have really had to teach anybody something like that. So maybe a chance to test my patients.... However, I might have to drawn on my fellow knitters for help in case the girl picks a difficult model.... Annelis maybe another customer for you. Not much is going on - I'm going to stay at my friends house until Sunday to take care of her dog. Little Lassie - and yes it is a miniature Lassie - not sure the name of the race - but he is so sweet. A pity he is getting old and can hardly hear. A good chance for me to get a bit of exercise.... (needed after Christmas!). Well, well, I have found the bike I want now I just have to buy it!

A new week begins...

It's been a week and I haven't manage to write anything. Though I had promised my self that I would. Last week passed fast with time to go for a walk during lunch time as well as a girlfriend tiff!
Now the weekend is over and it is back to work. I manage to start a new scarp at the spur of the moment (not ideal when we are going towards summer) but I just had to have it! Also I have a few projects going, which inspired by Liz I had decided to finish before starting on a new. Arg well I guess one decides to go down one road, until something catches you eye and you decide to take a turn. Of cause it didn't help that I had "lost" a stitch on my faux wrap sweater and changed my mind not to let it go and undid about 10cm to ensure that the sweater will come out almost perfect. I would like to say come out perfect but my sense of self criticism will not allow that.
Another week is ahead with quite a programme, mostly because I'm looking after my friends dog as of Wednesday. This means living 14 km out of Geneva. Getting up even earlier than normal to walk the dog. It also means a lot of trips back and forth. As Wednesday night is Stitch'n Bitch night, Thursday I have promised to go for drinks and Saturday night is Sara's b-day! Also Friday I'm going to Zürich to see a coach, the one who is going to help me for full my new year resolution about getting a new job in 2008. I'm looking forward to this, a few hours back and forth on the train to relax and knit.
Well, well let's see how the week goes. The boss is back and it looks like work is going to pick up (just a little bit YEAH!)

First day and work...

First workday after the holidays - or should I say first working day of the year and nothing to do!! I can't believe it I have been away for almost a month - because I got sick after returning from NY. Ok maybe it is what to expect since my boss is away on holiday but common' this is ridicules! On top of this - I manage to get a damage my car. Not to serious but when I will have it fixed for real it is going to cost my about 1000 CHF!!! Apart from that everything is fine. I manage to change the sewing machines that I have bought changed to a better model. I didn't think they would l since I got it 4 month ago. But I guess saying that I wanted to buy and better and more expensive model helped. Now lets hope it is better... Since I moved the furniture around my room is still a mess - but I just don't have the energy to tidy up the last few things. I hope I can do a few things everyday so that when the cleaning lady comes back from holiday next week - everything will be in order....

5 January - being creative

So I'm back again. Its been a few busy days with sewing and knitting. It has been great but tomorrow it is back to the real world and work. However, I would like to show off some of what I have done. I'm planning to make quilt for a friend who is having a baby. However, don't understand quite how to finish it so it will have to wait until I have spoken to Sara.
The front is squares put together and the back is stripes. I like to think that it will be very beautiful when it is finished. But until then it looks like this.

New Year Resolutions....

Ok, so I though a bit about what my new year resolution(s) should be - so here is a small list.

1. Get a new job (sschhhh .... don't tell my boss - yet!)
2. Be better at saying NO and listen to what I want and not what everybody else wants
3. Eat less and remember that there will be other days where I can eat the same food again.
4. Visit the gym more often

So 1 and 2 are new and 3 and 4 are carry overs from the last few years. I though about setting a specific goal for the weight loss but that would mean I would have to tell my weight - which I don't want to and also I like the idea of seeing this process of getting more health then being a weight issue. Yes I'm trying to learn from all these self help books and articles which I read in the women's magazines - though they still make us focus on the weight than on the health issue. Because we all do it for the close we can wear and the confidence that will give us than because we think 10 years ahead and it will have done to our heart and body to carry the extra weight!

January 1, 2008

A new year has begun and with that comes the traditional new years resolutions. In relation to this I have two different thoughts - one is - why are we obsessed with only beginning new things on the 1st or the beginning of a new month or on a Monday. Like diets only begin on a Monday why on a Wednesday or Saturday? Granted in some places they do write day 1., day 2 ect.
Why do human beings need to procrastinate a few days before changing old habits? I'm no different than other people so when I think about diets or going to the gym more or other things that requires that I get out of my comfort zone I also start out by - stating that I will start on the first of the month or on Monday. I wonder if that shows that we are not really motivated because if we were wouldn't we just start here and now and not then?
Last year when I was thinking of my new resolutions for 2007 I came across on the web a thing about changing habits little by little. Apparently it only takes 3 weeks to change a habit - I'm not convinced that it is true - I mean if you have done it for 30 something year can you then really break it in just 3 week?
I had though about writing down my wishes or new resolutions for this year 2008 - but I still haven't decided what they should be. Cause who wants to fail and not being able to write at the end of the year that they succeeded. Also on one side you have to challenge yourself but also be realistic about your goals. So like a zillion others I want to loose weight - so do I say 12kg cause that is a kg a month or is that to little if it is realistic to loose 500g a week? but if I say 24 kg in a year it might just be a tad to much. Should I write half? or just stick with the 12 so that if it is more then it is fantastic and would I really be happy with only loosing 12?
When I look at the habits I would like to change then I would like to eat more fruit but also go to the gym more. Should I say one piece of fruit a day and what if I don't do it? And the struggle to get to the gym which I have every year... that I want to do really well. I get going and go 2-3 times a week for a few month and then suddenly I'm like - where is the time for me? All I do is going to work and the gym. This is of course not true - but I'm pretty good at convincing my self that it is.
Ok enough of this bla. bla. I will give my self another day to come up with something.